A naughty lunch

Day 181- Wednesday

Head out to the mall for the first time on my own in nearly 7 months! Mum isn't very well and obviously Matt can't leave the house either and I didn't fancy another day on the couch. With no one to tell me "sugar feeds cancer" I have a Cold Stone Creamery ice cream for lunch followed by a bag of sweets! I spend two hours having a slow walk around and I buy myself two day time dresses, a pair of shoes for mum, a skinny tie for Matt and a top for Holly. A selfless shopper!

Don't feel anxious anymore being on my own which is just as well as within a month I will be on my own in the daytime after mum leaves. After two hours though I am physically exhausted. My brain would like to keep shopping but my legs can't take another step. They better improve quickly because I am a girl that likes to spend days shopping not just a few hours!

Was thinking about Malika and how she acts completely differently around me these days. Before my surgery she would growl at Matt if he came near me too fast or if I was sitting at a lower height and he approached me. She was really protective of me and constantly wanted my attention. We thought it was just because she was a rescue dog and she saw me as her main owner. Now I'm thinking she could sense something was wrong with me and was therefore more protective. Since my surgery she hasn't worried about Matt approaching me or being near me and she isn't clingy at all now. In fact she isn't really fussed with me anymore, she is more of a daddy's girl. Hopefully that means I'm disease free.

Mum and I are going round to have dinner with Holly tonight. It will be the first time I have seen her flat so I'm very excited. Can't be out too late though as it is work tomorrow.